As I've mentioned before, Henry* and I actually fought quite a bit. There was one fight in particular that my cell phone accidentally dialed him while my mom and I were talking about him, and she was revealing her usual disgust for our relationship. It's not that she didn't necessarily like him, she just thought he was emotionally abusive to me and that I deserved better.
Henry began tagging along with me to my church on Wednesday nights at my request. Henry had already graduated, and he came to my town one Wednesday night in June. He came down a little earlier than necessary so we could just hang out and go get some dinner before we went to church. This particular week, Lizzie* and Tony* also decided to join us. We all hung out at Lizzie's place for a little bit before heading downtown to a local Italian restaurant. While we were eating, Tony and Henry started making jokes at my expense, and something just set me over the edge. I'm not sure what exactly they said that pissed me off, but Henry got into it BIG TIME at the restaurant. We weren't quite yelling, but I do remember leaving the restaurant before I finished my dinner.
While he and I were in the car together, the fight really escalated. Before I knew it, I was yelling and crying at the same time. I told him that we didn't need to go to church anymore because there was no way I was going to calm down in time (in about 20 minutes). Instead, he and I went back to my house and sat in his car in the driveway and continued to fight. He and I yelled and argued and aired out everything we hated about each other, and then finally around 9 p.m., we decided to just end things. At the end of it all, we were both crying. He begged me to re-think it, to stay with him. Truth is, I knew this was a long time coming. He was heading off to college in the fall, and we were both so emotionally abusive to each other that I knew I would never be able to fully trust him while he was away.
I tried walking into my house and he ran out of his car after me to try to get me to change my mind. It caused us to start talking again, causing me to get back in his car to talk more. I think I ended up staying out there until around midnight, and finally, I just couldn't cry anymore. My last words were "I'm getting out of this car, going to bed, and you're not following me. You're going to drive home, and that will be the end of it."
It wasn't quite the end of it, because we definitely did try to get back together the next day, but it only lasted a couple weeks. I told him to stop calling me (way before text messaging was the way to communicate).
Ten months. We were together for ten months, and then I selfishly broke it off.
My name is Blake*, and he was the first person I ever said "I love you" to. Unfortunately, I found out a couple years later that I said it, but those feelings weren't as genuine as the guy I now call my high school sweetheart.
*all names have been changed to protect the innocent and not-so-innocent
Update on the boys in this entry:
Henry and I continued to talk to each other off and on. In fact, he and I are still pseudo-friends, and we hang out almost every time he comes to my town. It's actually not awkward at all. Except for when a girl that likes him is a bitch to me because she thinks we're getting back together. HELL NO.
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Monday, March 5, 2012
Sunday, March 4, 2012
26. A night to remember
Henry's* parents rented a car for us to drive to his prom. Since it was his senior prom, his parents wanted it to be the nicest prom he had gone to yet. Henry showed up in a very nice rented Cadillac. He knocked on the door to my house and my mom opened up the door. The look on his face was the best part of the night. Now, I was one of the biggest tomboys you would ever meet, so for him to see me with makeup on and everything was kind of a big deal. But nothing could prepare me for his reaction when he saw the way I looked.
We did our usual where our parents took a ridiculous amount of pictures of just the two of us, just us by ourselves, and then us with Lizzie* and Tony*. Then the four of us piled into the Caddy and went to a nice little bistro for our dinner reservations. I had braces at the time, so I had to be real careful as to what I ate. Didn't want to show up to prom with lettuce and stuff hanging in my teeth!
After we finished dinner, we still had a couple hours before the prom started, so we went back to Henry's town to visit with his dad. This is where Henry and I separated from Tony and Lizzie. Tony wanted to take Lizzie by his house to show her off to his parents, and Henry and I were meeting up with Heath* and his girlfriend Dani*. This is the same girl that hung out with us on New Years Eve, so I wasn't very excited to be spending that evening with her. Heath had broken the heart of one of my friends to be with her, so I never fully trusted her, but I digress.
The four of us piled into the car and headed to the prom after hanging out with Henry's dad for a little bit. Dani had a flask and had brought some liquor in it, which she and Heath sat and drank in the back seat of the car. They offered some to Henry and I, but I refused and told Henry that if he drank while he was driving us, even if it was one sip, that he could just forget about me staying at the prom and I would have my mom come pick me up. So because I was a bitch about it, Henry didn't drink either.
Once we got to the venue, Henry and I picked out a table and sat down for a little bit. My typical shoe attire every day was a pair of tennis shoes, so the small 3 inch heels were killing my feet. We sat down for a little bit, until Lizzie and Tony joined us, then the four of us headed to the dance floor and danced the night away. We danced all the normal ones you hear, like YMCA, Cha Cha Slide, and the Electric Slide too. But the one dance that I will never forget was a slow dance that Henry and I shared. "Our song" was a Hoobastank song that he and I loved a lot, but the song never got played. Instead, during the song "Amazed," a country song by Lonestar, Henry sang the entire song to me. Like I said, his voice was sexy, so hearing him sing to me was fantastic.
He and I stayed the duration of the prom, and then returned to his house so I could change. I think originally we were planning on going bowling after the prom, but because we had stayed for the whole time, we didn't want to pay just to bowl half a game. Instead, we decided to meet up with everyone at IHOP. I don't really like pancakes all that much, and to be honest I was exhausted and was just ready to go home. But we pulled into the IHOP parking lot and sat and talked for a little bit, and then he decided that he was ready to go home too.
I can't remember if I was allowed to stay the night with him or not. If I wasn't allowed to stay the night, I know I was allowed to stay out past my curfew. I feel like I did stay the night with him, but I can't really remember. I know I got home very early the next day. Henry and I didn't have sex that night just because I was so tired. It was one of the best nights of my life.
Even though that night created a euphoric memory for me, Henry and I were in high school, and you know how often high school relationships last....
My name is Blake*, and prom can truly be a magical night, just as long as you are smart about it. I didn't drink that night, and it was one of the best proms I ever went to.
*all names have been changed to protect the innocent and not-so-innocent
We did our usual where our parents took a ridiculous amount of pictures of just the two of us, just us by ourselves, and then us with Lizzie* and Tony*. Then the four of us piled into the Caddy and went to a nice little bistro for our dinner reservations. I had braces at the time, so I had to be real careful as to what I ate. Didn't want to show up to prom with lettuce and stuff hanging in my teeth!
After we finished dinner, we still had a couple hours before the prom started, so we went back to Henry's town to visit with his dad. This is where Henry and I separated from Tony and Lizzie. Tony wanted to take Lizzie by his house to show her off to his parents, and Henry and I were meeting up with Heath* and his girlfriend Dani*. This is the same girl that hung out with us on New Years Eve, so I wasn't very excited to be spending that evening with her. Heath had broken the heart of one of my friends to be with her, so I never fully trusted her, but I digress.
The four of us piled into the car and headed to the prom after hanging out with Henry's dad for a little bit. Dani had a flask and had brought some liquor in it, which she and Heath sat and drank in the back seat of the car. They offered some to Henry and I, but I refused and told Henry that if he drank while he was driving us, even if it was one sip, that he could just forget about me staying at the prom and I would have my mom come pick me up. So because I was a bitch about it, Henry didn't drink either.
Once we got to the venue, Henry and I picked out a table and sat down for a little bit. My typical shoe attire every day was a pair of tennis shoes, so the small 3 inch heels were killing my feet. We sat down for a little bit, until Lizzie and Tony joined us, then the four of us headed to the dance floor and danced the night away. We danced all the normal ones you hear, like YMCA, Cha Cha Slide, and the Electric Slide too. But the one dance that I will never forget was a slow dance that Henry and I shared. "Our song" was a Hoobastank song that he and I loved a lot, but the song never got played. Instead, during the song "Amazed," a country song by Lonestar, Henry sang the entire song to me. Like I said, his voice was sexy, so hearing him sing to me was fantastic.
He and I stayed the duration of the prom, and then returned to his house so I could change. I think originally we were planning on going bowling after the prom, but because we had stayed for the whole time, we didn't want to pay just to bowl half a game. Instead, we decided to meet up with everyone at IHOP. I don't really like pancakes all that much, and to be honest I was exhausted and was just ready to go home. But we pulled into the IHOP parking lot and sat and talked for a little bit, and then he decided that he was ready to go home too.
I can't remember if I was allowed to stay the night with him or not. If I wasn't allowed to stay the night, I know I was allowed to stay out past my curfew. I feel like I did stay the night with him, but I can't really remember. I know I got home very early the next day. Henry and I didn't have sex that night just because I was so tired. It was one of the best nights of my life.
Even though that night created a euphoric memory for me, Henry and I were in high school, and you know how often high school relationships last....
My name is Blake*, and prom can truly be a magical night, just as long as you are smart about it. I didn't drink that night, and it was one of the best proms I ever went to.
*all names have been changed to protect the innocent and not-so-innocent
Tuesday, January 17, 2012
18. Silly nights make for awesome memories
Henry* and I got a long great in the beginning. I would skip my high school's football games to attend his, hang out with him for a little bit afterwards, and then he'd take me home (I didn't have my license yet). Most weekends, he'd either come and spend time with me and my family, or he'd come pick me up and take me to his hometown for a date at a couple of our favorite restaurants (they weren't around my hometown). Most of our dates were dinner and a movie. I enjoyed it a lot.
At one point, we convinced my friend Haley* that she needed to date Henry's twin brother Heath*. The cool thing about Haley is that she also lived pretty far away from where our parents were too. There was one weekend that her mom was going out of town, so we convinced the boys to come over and hang out with us. They weren't staying the night, we just wanted them to come hang out. It was definitely a girls' night with a little bit of testosterone injected for some fun.
The girls and I started the night out like normal--movies and snacks. Then we started getting silly. Then the boys came just barely after dark (they had told us they weren't coming anymore) and scared the shit out of us. They started banging on the doors and windows and shining flashlights into the house. So what did we do? We hid. And almost started crying. We debating calling our moms and the cops, but then they called each of us and said they were outside. The bastards.
Once we calmed down, we did what any normal 15-16 year olds would do when they were home alone with their boyfriends: We played hide and seek in the house! (What were you thinking?!)When neither I nor Henry were "it," we would hide together and hold each other and kiss constantly. That's what caused us to be found. Every. Single. Time. We still hadn't had sex at this point, so kissing was as far as it went.
Eventually, we decided to stop playing hide and seek and sat down to watch a movie. I don't even think we finished the movie before the guys headed home.
It was a night full of silliness with good friends, and it was one of the most fun nights I've ever had with some of my best friends.
My name is Blake*, and this was before I lost my innocence.
*all names have been changed to protect the innocent and not-so-innocent
At one point, we convinced my friend Haley* that she needed to date Henry's twin brother Heath*. The cool thing about Haley is that she also lived pretty far away from where our parents were too. There was one weekend that her mom was going out of town, so we convinced the boys to come over and hang out with us. They weren't staying the night, we just wanted them to come hang out. It was definitely a girls' night with a little bit of testosterone injected for some fun.
The girls and I started the night out like normal--movies and snacks. Then we started getting silly. Then the boys came just barely after dark (they had told us they weren't coming anymore) and scared the shit out of us. They started banging on the doors and windows and shining flashlights into the house. So what did we do? We hid. And almost started crying. We debating calling our moms and the cops, but then they called each of us and said they were outside. The bastards.
Once we calmed down, we did what any normal 15-16 year olds would do when they were home alone with their boyfriends: We played hide and seek in the house! (What were you thinking?!)When neither I nor Henry were "it," we would hide together and hold each other and kiss constantly. That's what caused us to be found. Every. Single. Time. We still hadn't had sex at this point, so kissing was as far as it went.
Eventually, we decided to stop playing hide and seek and sat down to watch a movie. I don't even think we finished the movie before the guys headed home.
It was a night full of silliness with good friends, and it was one of the most fun nights I've ever had with some of my best friends.
My name is Blake*, and this was before I lost my innocence.
*all names have been changed to protect the innocent and not-so-innocent
Monday, January 16, 2012
17. Awkward first dates
As I mentioned in my last post, Henry* and I went on a date as a couple for his birthday. It was also our first solo date. We had hung out with Lizzie* and Tony* once before, but had yet to do anything just the two of us.
I actually had a softball tournament that weekend, and he drove to it to see me. He also brought his twin brother and his father. It was very awkward to meet his father about a week or two after I met him.
Being the young cub that I was, I didn't get to play too much, but I still got to play catch and take grounders and whatnot. During one of our games, Lizzie reached over and told me that Tony and Henry were there. I look in the crowd, find Tony, but I didn't see Henry. Instead, I saw his twin brother. They did look a lot alike, but I could definitely tell the difference between Heath* and Henry. Henry was tall and lanky, and Heath was just as tall but a little chubbier, and definitely in the face.
So after the game I walked up to Heath, and he says "Hey babe!" I said, "Hey HEATH, where's Henry?" Then he starts cracking up laughing and asks how I knew it was him. I told him that even though I had only seen Henry once before, I knew what he looked like pretty well. But Heath also had their dad with him, so not only did I meet their father a couple weeks after I met Henry, I also met him without Henry being there.
Once Henry finally got there, we made plans to hang out later that evening after I went home and showered and whatnot. We decided on dinner and a movie. Do you remember my post about Barry* and how I said I was friends with his sister for a while? Well she had texted me while I was getting ready and wanted to hang out. Basically, she wanted to use me and my boyfriend for his car because she wanted to see another guy, Nolan*. All three of us (me, Nolan, and Barry's sister) were under age and couldn't drive, but she wanted to see Nolan that night. Henry was nice enough that he said he didn't mind taking her to the movie, but he just wanted dinner to be just us. I was okay with that.
After dinner, we went and picked up Barry's sister and Nolan, and then headed to the local theater to watch a movie. Mind you, this was my first date with Henry, and I was a little prude. (A lot prude.) Henry and I just sat and watched the movie with Barry's sister and Nolan very loudly made out throughout the entire movie. I felt awkward and apologized to Henry, and he told me not to worry about it, that he actually didn't mind them and that he actually liked that I didn't try that on our first date. I'm pretty sure Nolan even went down her pants in Henry's back seat on the way back. It was gross.
Henry didn't even kiss me as we left, because I told him I didn't want to just yet. He was very respectful in the beginning.
My name is Blake*, and Barry's sister is just as sleazy as Barry...
*all names have been changed to protect the innocent and not-so-innocent
Nolan comes into play later in my life when I go off to college, and Heath adds a little more to the story while I'm still with Henry.
I actually had a softball tournament that weekend, and he drove to it to see me. He also brought his twin brother and his father. It was very awkward to meet his father about a week or two after I met him.
Being the young cub that I was, I didn't get to play too much, but I still got to play catch and take grounders and whatnot. During one of our games, Lizzie reached over and told me that Tony and Henry were there. I look in the crowd, find Tony, but I didn't see Henry. Instead, I saw his twin brother. They did look a lot alike, but I could definitely tell the difference between Heath* and Henry. Henry was tall and lanky, and Heath was just as tall but a little chubbier, and definitely in the face.
So after the game I walked up to Heath, and he says "Hey babe!" I said, "Hey HEATH, where's Henry?" Then he starts cracking up laughing and asks how I knew it was him. I told him that even though I had only seen Henry once before, I knew what he looked like pretty well. But Heath also had their dad with him, so not only did I meet their father a couple weeks after I met Henry, I also met him without Henry being there.
Once Henry finally got there, we made plans to hang out later that evening after I went home and showered and whatnot. We decided on dinner and a movie. Do you remember my post about Barry* and how I said I was friends with his sister for a while? Well she had texted me while I was getting ready and wanted to hang out. Basically, she wanted to use me and my boyfriend for his car because she wanted to see another guy, Nolan*. All three of us (me, Nolan, and Barry's sister) were under age and couldn't drive, but she wanted to see Nolan that night. Henry was nice enough that he said he didn't mind taking her to the movie, but he just wanted dinner to be just us. I was okay with that.
After dinner, we went and picked up Barry's sister and Nolan, and then headed to the local theater to watch a movie. Mind you, this was my first date with Henry, and I was a little prude. (A lot prude.) Henry and I just sat and watched the movie with Barry's sister and Nolan very loudly made out throughout the entire movie. I felt awkward and apologized to Henry, and he told me not to worry about it, that he actually didn't mind them and that he actually liked that I didn't try that on our first date. I'm pretty sure Nolan even went down her pants in Henry's back seat on the way back. It was gross.
Henry didn't even kiss me as we left, because I told him I didn't want to just yet. He was very respectful in the beginning.
My name is Blake*, and Barry's sister is just as sleazy as Barry...
*all names have been changed to protect the innocent and not-so-innocent
Nolan comes into play later in my life when I go off to college, and Heath adds a little more to the story while I'm still with Henry.
Saturday, January 14, 2012
16. The moment where I get my first real, long-term boyfriend.
If you haven't figured out by now, I'm completely and utterly boy crazy. There's nothing like a good looking guy, a sexy deep voice, or some amazing smelling cologne. I did a lot of my stupid stuff with my previously mentioned friend Lizzie*. Lizzie and I were best friends in high school. Somewhere during the summer between my freshman and sophomore years in high school, she met a couple of guys from a small town across the state. Their names were Tony* and Henry*. If I remember correctly, Henry was initially interested in Lizzie, and Lizzie was interested in Tony. Because she felt bad about it, she asked if I wanted to maybe talk to and meet Henry. She showed him a picture of me and he said he'd like to get to know me. So we got on AIM (does anyone still use that?!) and started talking to each other almost daily. I had a cell phone that I was using, and we exchanged numbers and began talking to each other daily. Henry's voice was deep and sexy. Seriously, a good sounding deep voice will get a guy far!
Henry and I talked so much that I found myself really liking him a lot without ever meeting him. When I would ask Lizzie about him, she would say that he is tall and really nice. (Here's a hint: if your friend can only say he's nice, he's probably not the best looking.)
Before I knew it, summer was ending, and school was starting. Both Tony and Henry were seniors, and so the thought of dating someone older than me was pretty awesome as well!
I'll never forget the night that I met Henry. Lizzie convinced Tony to come to our town for our back to school night, a night where our parents meet our teachers for the semester to establish a good relationship for any future problems. Basically the ones whose parents need to go never do.
Anyways, like normal we had practice right up to when back to school night started. Lizzie and I wore our sweaty practice clothes over to the high school to meet our moms, and she dropped a ball on me:
"Hey Blake, Tony and Henry are going to be here by the way. Just thought you should know."-Lizzie
"WHAT?! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?!"-me
"Henry wanted to surprise you"-Lizzie
And boy was I ever surprised. See in my mind, sexy voice = mr sexy pants in real life. No no, Henry was tall and lanky and kind of awkward. And he was dressed grungy. Not that I was any better in my sweaty practice clothes, but at least I had an excuse. I was really disappointed when I met him, and tried to hide my disappointment. But I didn't hide it very well. The four of us hung out for a little bit that evening before the boys had to leave to drive home.
Once he got home, Henry called me and we talked about what we wanted to do. Like I said, I didn't hide my disappointment very well, and he told me that I didn't have to continue talking to him. But I knew that even though I was a little disappointed, I still really liked him. He made me laugh all the time, and we very rarely had a lull in conversation. So, me being the un-shallow person that I tried to be, I told him he was crazy. That I still wanted to talk to him and be with him.
I don't exactly remember if that night we decided to be boyfriend and girlfriend, but I do know that it was sometime around then. I know this because his birthday was a couple weeks later, and we did go out for his birthday as a couple.
This is also where the boys will start taking up more than one post at a time. Just wanted to warn you in advance!
My name is Blake, and I genuinely miss having that giddy feeling.
*all names have been changed to protect the innocent and not-so-innocent
Henry and I talked so much that I found myself really liking him a lot without ever meeting him. When I would ask Lizzie about him, she would say that he is tall and really nice. (Here's a hint: if your friend can only say he's nice, he's probably not the best looking.)
Before I knew it, summer was ending, and school was starting. Both Tony and Henry were seniors, and so the thought of dating someone older than me was pretty awesome as well!
I'll never forget the night that I met Henry. Lizzie convinced Tony to come to our town for our back to school night, a night where our parents meet our teachers for the semester to establish a good relationship for any future problems. Basically the ones whose parents need to go never do.
Anyways, like normal we had practice right up to when back to school night started. Lizzie and I wore our sweaty practice clothes over to the high school to meet our moms, and she dropped a ball on me:
"Hey Blake, Tony and Henry are going to be here by the way. Just thought you should know."-Lizzie
"WHAT?! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME?!"-me
"Henry wanted to surprise you"-Lizzie
And boy was I ever surprised. See in my mind, sexy voice = mr sexy pants in real life. No no, Henry was tall and lanky and kind of awkward. And he was dressed grungy. Not that I was any better in my sweaty practice clothes, but at least I had an excuse. I was really disappointed when I met him, and tried to hide my disappointment. But I didn't hide it very well. The four of us hung out for a little bit that evening before the boys had to leave to drive home.
Once he got home, Henry called me and we talked about what we wanted to do. Like I said, I didn't hide my disappointment very well, and he told me that I didn't have to continue talking to him. But I knew that even though I was a little disappointed, I still really liked him. He made me laugh all the time, and we very rarely had a lull in conversation. So, me being the un-shallow person that I tried to be, I told him he was crazy. That I still wanted to talk to him and be with him.
I don't exactly remember if that night we decided to be boyfriend and girlfriend, but I do know that it was sometime around then. I know this because his birthday was a couple weeks later, and we did go out for his birthday as a couple.
This is also where the boys will start taking up more than one post at a time. Just wanted to warn you in advance!
My name is Blake, and I genuinely miss having that giddy feeling.
*all names have been changed to protect the innocent and not-so-innocent
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